I saw a big beautiful butterfly flutter outside my window. I'm so thankful for any signs that I can see. And also what I can't see but can feel. A mother's bond to her child can never be broken. My baby took a part of me with him and that's okay. I have said it before I'll say it again- He can take all that he needs.
Although I'm not alone in this sometimes I feel that way. The pain, the grief is quite isolating. It's the lowest, hardest place I've ever
been.
I love all of my family and friends helping me and loving us though this. 
I love you baby. Always and forever.